Dear Rowsheall & Katelyn, It has been a while since I wrote. Katelyn's birthday is creeping up on me again. Well here is the scoop on your grandmother Sally. She has recurrent breast cancer stage 2b and her Skin cancer is stage 3 she is currently doing radiation and will be getting back on interferon after she completes her radiation therapy. But she is only going to go with these treatments until she loses Quality of life then she is going to stop and gain it back. She wants quality of life not quantity. She wants to see you girls and hold you girls, but she can't. I am not sure if she is going to make it out of this one but I am praying and handing it over to God so he can take care of it as he sees fit. I hope you get to meet her someday and see her and love on her...she really misses you both and loves you both, just as much as I do. I miss you guys so much! I have been doing better with my depression, but my stress is sky rocketed due to the circumstances with your grandma. I have now TMJ really bad and had to have jaw surgery where they flushed the joint out and got the inflammation out of the joint. My face has been suffering with pain, and a form of bells palsy, cause a nerve was pinched with the inflammation of the joint, which is better on the bells palsy, but the pain is still there if not more so. I have motivation though now and been getting a lot done with the house work today and here lately. I plan to do more and more each day and get a routine down pat and then work on things I wanna do....I can't wait to see you girls again I wanna hold you in my arms and never let go...I love you both so much and miss you so much! I need to go now but I will try seems every time I try to keep up something comes up and gets me busy again and prevents me from writing on here. I assure you though. I think about you every waking hour of each passing day and pray for you both and your new family too. I think I am nearing capability of writing a letter to your parents and requesting pictures of you girls along with anything else that they think is of interest to me and see what happens...I think I am strong enough now in case they deny my request it wont crush me to no end. So hopefully I will get to see you grow up to now through pictures they send me. I miss you love you. See ya soon! Sincerely, Your birth mother Rabeka Jo D (Dob 5/80) PS. if I don't get to post on the 15Th here: Happy Birthday Katelyn!!! Wow you are 7 years old! you must be getting so big and doing so many things that I wish I could be witnessing. I miss you and love you very much! I will talk to you later. much love