Happy 17th birthday Rowsheall!!! 365 more days to go!

Dear Rowsheall,
I'm so excited that 265 days are left until you are 18 and can come find me! It's been 17 years since you been outside my protective body and its been 13 years and 7 months since I last held you in my loving arms, told you I loved you thiiiiiis much, kissed you, and seen your face. That is
4,962 days I've been without my sunshine (of course Katelyn included). So close yet so far until you can legally come find me and our game I told you about on our last visit (of hide and seek) can finally come to an end. I shouldn't be too hard to find since I'm still in the same house I was in back then. And I'm so ready for this day to get here!
At 2:16am you came into my life. I couldn't wait to meet you and here I feel I've been pregnant all these years waiting for your arrival to see your face, touch your face, hug you and kiss you and hold you and tell you I love you.
I hope I don't disappoint you in who you think I am or should be. I'm also hoping the system didn't fail you in placement and pray you lived a happy fulfilled life thus far! I'm here arms wide open waiting for you baby girl! See you so very soon!
Sincerley,
Your loving birth mother,
Rabeka Jo (F) D
DOB 05/1980
PS. I was going to send this at your birth time but I need to go to sleep xoxo