I was told that most the cases that happened around the time our case was in the system have been overturned because some of the people on the cases were found to be incompetent and if I learned which these incompetent people were and found they were on our case I could win you girls back.
Don't get me wrong here I do want more than anything for you to come home to me, but you are established and to move you girls again I am not sure would be the right thing for you girls. So I am kinda torn on do I pursue this and possibly get you girls back and get money for the damage done to us as a family that was torn apart for no reason outside of false rumors.
There is not one single day I do not think of you girls and I ache so hard to hold you again. I am so sorry I failed the system and lost you. I know in 2 years Rowsheall can come find me and in 3 years Katelyn can come find me..and for me to just open this up and get you girls back for your last 2-3 years of childhood...I just don't know that I see the benefit of that. At the same time I lost so many years prior and it would give me 2-3 years to catch up on those 13 years we lost because of a system built to destroy single mothers lives who they deemed unfit because they were single and didn't have a significant other but had a grandmother who your mom was taking care of...anyways...I am just going back and forth on the fence with this whole thought of getting you back or not...of course the incompetent may not have been on our case and it would be a waste of time and hope and excitement but hey worth a shot...I think next time I get the chance I will go downtown to the court house and look at the public records and see. Wish I had known this quite a few years ago like when the incompetent were found incompetent. Why didn't they notify me? smh. anyways.
I love you girls so very much I hope to hold you again soon!
Sincerely,
your loving birth mother
Rabeka Jo (F) D (dob 05-80)
